COOL HIPPIES DO WEED

Apparently if you want to be part of the cool kids aka HIPPIE NEW AGE SQUAD, you have to be an established weedhead.

Their reasoning about what HIPPIE means pretty much goes like this "YOU POST SO MUCH HIPPIE STUFF ON YOUR FACEBOOK, YOU MUST ALSO HAVE A DRUG DEALER AND SMOKE WEED, WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU FOR IDENTIFYING AS HIPPIE BUT NOT BEING A DRUG USER?"

Yes you read that right, being a HIPPIE to a "fumegated" mind [pun intended] practically has nothing to do with TRUE SPIRITUALITY, SPIRITUAL AWARENESS OR A TRUE SENSE OF ENLIGHTENMENT AND GROUNDEDNESS.

They constantly seek to abuse any sort of substance to ZONE THE FUCK OUT. To incapacitate themselves in such a way that escapism is their only ANSWER to COPE with something called "BAD OLD LIFE".

They literally use WEED to REWIRE their brain into making them think that being A SPINELESS AND UNPRODUCTIVE member of the community is the only way to be PART OF THE COMMUNITY - OR TO RATHER SURVIVE "NOT REALLY DEALING" with the reality of society and the effects thereof on their "psyche".

Because if you are SOBER MINDED, society hands you a SHITBUCKET of lessons and obstacles to overcome, to not only learn how to deal with difficulties in a healthy way but also to make you grow as person. To increase your wisdom and mental maturity through RAW LIFE experiences.

RAW LIFE EXPERIENCES is simply not the cup of tea for these VAPED OUT new agers - no, they practically put their life on a hiatus [hold] by constantly being on some type of trip to AVOID REALITY. Using drugs and escapism as an anesthetic to run away from the challenges and true fruits that it has to offer, when faced bravely and SOBER headed.


I believe it is a misconception to CONNECT THE WORD "HIPPIE" WITH DRUG ABUSE - to me being a HIPPIE was always about challenging society's norm. These "weed vapers" are like people who use religion as an excuse NOT TO DEAL WITH THEIR OWN PERSONAL PROBLEMS, oh leave it to JESUS, one day JESUS WILL FUCKING COME and take my pain away. NO!!! JESUS WON'T FUCKING HELP ANYONE WHO DON'T WANT TO HELP THEMSELVES FIRST. 

SO THE NEW AGE FUCKTARDS smoke WEED to dream about aliens and shit, that is someday going to come down from the HEAVENS and save them, because they are TOO HIGH to function and THEREFORE UNABLE think for themselves on HOW TO SORT OUT THEIR OWN SHIT - MEANING they don't want to SORT OUT THEIR OWN SHIT, THEY RUN FROM THEIR PERSONAL SHIT. How is that any indication of a person who is "enlightened"?

NO TRUE FREE SPIRIT WOULD ABUSE DRUGS - IN ORDER TO SUPPRESS THEIR EMOTIONAL STATE MORE. These fuckers are truly living in fear of themselves, and POISON their bodies to DROWN THEIR DEMONS, instead of facing them.

I don't see how someone can claim to be OPEN MINDED, when they use drugs TO AVOID THEMSELVES AND THE WORLD AROUND THEM.

NEW AGERS FUCK UP A LOT OF THINGS - AND ONE OF THEM INCLUDES FUCKING UP THE WORD "HIPPIE", BECAUSE EVERYONE NEEDS TO BE SPINELESS AND AFRAID OF THEIR "DARK SIDES". ONLY COOL PEOPLE AVOID THEMSELVES - YEP SOUNDS LIKE THE COMMUNAL PSYCHOSIS OF SOCIETY RIGHT THERE. SELF-KNOWLEDGE AINT' ON THE MENU OF "spiritual things to do".

when you want to tell a new age fucktard that they ain't growing younger and need to get their shit together but they are too high in the moment to give even one fuck
I believe the new age is all part of some social agenda to TELL KIDS it is okay to have no direction in life, to have no fucking dreams you know, just to sit on the porch high as a peg all day... waiting for the WORLD to fix your SHIT FOR YOU instead of GOING OUT INTO THE WORLD and making a REAL DIFFERENCE. NEW AGERS ARE PROBABLY PART OF A "ZOMBIFIED NATION AGENDA". Willfully being paralyzed by BULLSHIT in order to AVOID DEALING WITH (AND CLEARING OF) MATERIAL BULLSHIT TO MAKE THE WORLD A BETTER PLACE.

IN CASE YOU HAVEN'T READ THE FIRST PICTURE TO THIS POST - A BOHEMIAN DOES NOT TRAVEL WITH THE CROWD, DOING DRUGS DOES NOT MAKE YOU STAND OUT. *SHAKES MY HEAD*

ONCE AGAIN THE MOTTO: "I DON'T WANT TO TAKE RESPONSIBILITY FOR MY LIFE" FAILS TO IMPRESS SMART PEOPLE.

DON'T TELL PEOPLE YOU USE DRUGS TO "RELAX" WHEN YOU ONLY USE THEM TO ESCAPE - RELAXING YOURSELF OUT OF YOUR GOD DAMNED MIND. WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK?!

I JUST DON'T SEE what real difference these fuckers can make in the world, when being grounded and not willing to embrace the sacred masculine is the only thing on their AGENDA. Feeding and exercising the INTELLECT is just not for them it seems. BUT WHEN THEY ARE ABOUT TO OVERDOSE ON DRUGS, they suddenly want a doctor, or when they are rotting in jail for DRUG POSSESSION or DRUG DEALING they suddenly want a LAWYER to help them.

LIKE GHOSTS THEY DESIRE TO BE - NOT PART OF THIS WORLD THAT THEY PURPORTEDLY WANT TO "CHANGE" WITH ALL THEIR ALIENS AND FAIRY FLUFF.

It makes a whole lot of sense why the USA wants to LEGALIZE DRUGS - to incapacitate its CITIZENS MORE, to make TURN them into WASHED UP human beings, who won't have to grit to effect CHANGE when the WORLD POWER rules their lives. DRUGGED CITIZENS ARE AFTERALL EASIER TO CONTROL AND BULLSHIT, BECAUSE THEY DON'T GIVE A FUCK ABOUT WHAT HAPPENS AROUND THEM. 

THERE CAN BE NO TRUE LEADERS BORN OUT OF SUCH A CULTURALLY FUCKED GENERATION, THAT CAN SO EASILY BE MINDFUCKED WITHOUT A CARE IN THE WORLD, SINCE MINDFUCKING THEMSELVES SEEMS TO COME NATURALLY TO THEM.

These SELF-DRUG INDUCED "HIPPIES" are no true rebels and thinkers, and their main goal is to self-destruct, to vanish into the outskirts of psychological oblivion. The joke is on them, and I'd rather not say "WELL PLAYED SOCIETY!!!"

PS: I DON'T DO DRUGS, BUT THANKS FOR ASKING. I LEARNED SO MUCH FROM YOUR ARROGANCE. DO YOU REALLY THINK USING DRUGS MAKES YOU LOOK COOL AND POWERFUL? OR DOESN'T IT REALLY MAKE YOU LOOK LIKE A LITTLE TWAT WHO ARE UNABLE TO COPE WHEN SHIT GETS REAL?! 

PERFECTION AND NEW AGE BULLSHIT

I just saw a scene from some movie, where a boy is the main character, he was swimming in a pool, swimming his own fucking race, competing against himself, and everyone was standing outside of the pool, cheering him on, telling him he can do it, oh all the eyes on him, HE IS THE SPECIAL SNOWFLAKE AND DIFFERENT FROM EVERYBODY ELSE ??? --- UHHM NO, THAT IS A FUCKING LIE.. what the fuck right?

Let me tell you how this new age bullshit works - the reptoid fuckers get children who are good robots, to do the devil's bidding - by that I mean, like they would do literally everything and anything to reach that preferred state perfection, without giving it a second thought, without really asking what the fuck they are doing in the first place. Let's say, they want to be a famous scientist or doctor or lawyer or priest, because you know that shit is good for the ego, they would just learn the theories like poems that must be recited to sound super cool, and to get the fame their pride allows them to feed on. ( RIP DOGMA THAT BRAIN KILLING FUCKER. )

Let's take for example a few Reptilian whores like those pop sensations such as Britney Spears, Beyonce Knowles, Taylor Swift, Miley Cyrus just to name a few. They have this image of perfection in their heads, that these Snakes, tell them is the epithet ("top point") of stardom and divinity. They will do anything, sell their souls, to get there, whatever it takes - even take it out on their bodies, minds and souls. As long as they have pride, they seemingly need nothing else in this world.

But they are FAR FROM PERFECT, when they reach that pinnacle points in their life, when they reach that BELOVED (ROYALTY) STATUS in life, because when they were busy PLEASING SOCIETY, their SOULS SUFFERED under the pressure, their MINDS SO TO SAY COLLAPSED in one CRUCIAL region (of humanity) while they were USING another part of the brain to get what they wanted.

The illusion of perfection, ego and pride, is what keep these reptoid raped people going. It is also the same thing that makes them bullies of their fellow man, for not living up to these fucked up social standards. THEY FEED OFF the energy generated, when someone makes a mistake even amongst their own flock. They like feeding off feelings such as suffering from inferiority complexes, which they in fact all do, and get mindfucked to think it normal. They thus like bullying each other, in terms of not living up to the standards of what they perceive to be those standards and principles of perfection. It all comes down to them really showing how insecure they are, of how they fear one misstep on their behalf, of how much they really fear being a crack on the matrix or illusion of perfection, how they really fear to be truly DIFFERENT AND UNIQUE. Because what they fear most is not being "good enough", as in "ever", they fear non-acceptance, when in fact they ARE NEVER GOOD ENOUGH, no matter how hard they try to maintain these wayward standards of social "perfection".

NOBODY IS FUCKING PERFECT - IF WE WERE ALL PERFECT, THEN THIS TYPE OF FUCKED UP SOCIAL PARADIGMS WOULD HAVE NEVER EXISTED FOR MANKIND TO LIVE BY.

What is my point with this story? I don't know really, maybe it is to state a fact here - that to the reptoids and the system you will never be good enough, because that is the mental chains they put their "slaves" in. It is a form of blackmail and exploitation. Like you give us all of you and more, and we will never tell the world your greatest weakness ~~ that you just deeply want to be loved and accepted. And then I can't say here "loved for what you are", because clearly if you live to please the system you want to be loved for something you are clearly not, and never will be.

reading my own words, it sounds a bit befuddled, but it makes sense if you think about the entire setup ~~ being part of the "matrix society" you live and work to be loved by a SYSTEM that would never regard you as good enough, because you can never reach the impossible aspirations of their version of perfection. 

THE PERFECTION OF THE MATRIX IS A LIE, BUT NOT A GREATER LIE THAN THE EGO OF MAN AND THE ABILITY TO LIE TO ITSELF.

THESE DAYS BEING A TRUE SPECIAL SNOWFLAKE YOU MUST ENDEAVOR TO TRULY BE DIFFERENT THAN THE REST, FUCK THE COOL KIDS, FUCK THEIR STANDARDS ~ BECAUSE THE ONLY THING THAT IS "SPECIAL" OR UNIQUE ABOUT THEM IS THEIR HIVE MINDED SPECIAL SNOWFLAKE SYNDROME, WHEN THEY ALL STRIVE TO ACT THE SAME, NO ONE IS SPECIAL IN THEIR RANKS IN ANYMORE.

REINCARNATION AND SOCIETY'S SHARED PSYCHOSIS

All the world is but a stage ~ William Shakespeare

I have done research on past lives and even subjected myself to a few past life regression sessions aka self-hypnosis to recall that which lies deep within one's soul.

It was not until I told someone who I once deemed a trusted friend, that I actually realized what the fuck is wrong with society.

If it is true that we are all but souls being recycled, due to the different lessons we failed to learn in a past life and need to learn in a new life, then society is generally just fooling itself with regards to its own identity. 

I realized the reason being for some people to be so incredibly asleep to the greater spiritual reality is that they immensely enjoy fooling themselves and others in this "new" as fuck life they have been given. Seeing that they deem this "new life" they have been given, their SECOND CHANCE, their NEW LIFE "without any strings attached", a new life where DREAMS that couldn't be fulfilled in the old life can now be fulfilled in another life. They are something new, so the "old them" simply does not exist in their minds any more, nor the fact that they were once spirits in bodies in another physical life, and also just spirits in the afterlife before they came back to earth in a new incarnation. They want to live, as living people. THEY DON'T WANT TO BE GHOSTS AND WANT TO HEAR NONE OF HAVING INCORPOREAL SOULS.

It is then true that people like me who suffered a NDE (Near Death Experience), a thinker, a dreamer, a questioner because of being "awakened" out of this "dream" I once had of a "new life" being given to live - are the very people who threaten these other "recycled" souls on their "journey", that we are seen as people who interfere with their "dreams and growth" in their new lives. That we challenge them to wake the fuck up out of the common delusion, that if you die and get reborn again, you just get a new life without attachments and any consequences whatsoever.

I had far too many soulmate connections, and past life karmic connections to simply make me indifferent thereto. It is true that the NEW AGE movement teaches crap about total detachment, that there must be no attachments to make you feel FREE as a soul, to make you evolve. I beg to differ, I think this NEW AGE CONCEPT has completely been blown out of proportion and the essence of what it was actually meant to serve as has been crudely bent. I just don't know how someone can love or have any sense of passion and purpose in life if they are completely detached from everything and everyone around them. To me that comes down to being in a vegetative state of being. I mean what the fuck do you have to live for (in any life for that regard) if you have no attachments or goals. If you have no soul connections....etc. 

Maybe it means you have to detach yourself once the lesson is learned, or maybe it means you have to detach yourself from worldly or material beliefs to see things clearly, to teach with certainty and to make a real difference. Or the most probable meaning is to detach the HIGHER SELF from the EGO, that keeps the the HIGHER SPIRITUAL SELF asleep from itself. With the effect that this ego, that these souls cling to for life and/or death, being the main reason thwarting their spiritual growth in this life and the next.

Yet again total detachment from people and things in general shows a lack of total compassion, an honest lack of soul or heart connection, a total lack of empathy, showing telltale signs of self-induced psychopathy. 

Nevertheless - I believe truly spiritually enhanced souls, like I, come to earth, to awaken soon, to teach people to "review" their life choices before they DIE and move on to another life. Maybe that is the purpose of old (teacher) souls. In this way we make people grow at a faster rate. 

It is true that people have their own paths and journeys to take, and that you cannot make decisions for anybody. You can however try to make an impact in somebody's life if you feel strongly that it would CHANGE yourself too. On the other hand some people simply refuse to learn, even if you come with good intentions to bring a message or further your own education by trying to help them think out of the box. Then it is good to leave, there is no purpose in making a fool out of yourself for the sake of another person's sanity. Some people like to be constantly insane, they like not having inner peace, they like living within a comfort zone, don't disturb them, learn from them to become a better person yourself. It is also true that TRUE SEEKERS, like  yourself, would find you - if you resonate a certain type of energy you will attract them. But if  you are confused, you will attract (and/or go to) confused souls. Maybe this is all part of the journey...

Feminine Power? Never heard of her but I do know A whole lot of Bad Bitches

I got this link in my inbox today: Shakti is the Agent of All Change.

I decided to write a post today, since it has been so long that I actually wrote on this blog about new age bullshit and all the FUN that comes with it, mainly because I WAS JUST SICK of trying to decipher and dealing with bullshit which appeared to be meaningless. Maybe it was my hormones or something, or just generally being fed up with FUCKED UP HUMANS and SOCIETY and its mental and "spiritual" plagues, that continuously stirs humanity down a shit hole spiral.

I am just here, thinking as USUAL, about how incredibly fucked up this human race is, and how delusional it would be to wish that a REAL CHANGE would ever hit planet earth, such as the SHIFT IN CONSCIOUSNESS or the awakening of some Christ consciousness.

Then I read this article about the Mystery of the Universe lying within the Magnetic poles of planet earth.

The assholes who honestly think HUMANS will ever change their ways are definitely out of touch with the "UNIVERSAL POLES OF GOOD AND BAD, LIGHT AND DARK" etc.  Even so if the whole creation came into existence because of "the masculine and feminine principle", that there would have been no CREATION if it weren't for these two energies of "Yin and YANG" being interconnected in some very sick, abstract and absurd way. That because of this alchemy of the UNIVERSE that there would be no LIFE per se.

And then it hit me like a stone between my eyes, feeling the PRIDE of the GIANT GOLIATH being shattered by the "insignificant" man DAVID, who is capable of being GOOD [God fearing man] and ultimately MURDER.

The notion, that these SICK AND TWISTED new agers seem to nurture about HUMANS BEING ABLE to distance or disassociate themselves from the dark side in themselves, by BALANCING THE FEMININE AND MASCULINE ENERGIES within themselves, is ABSURD AND TOTALLY NONSENSICAL. How do you wish to accomplish the impossible, a total shift in consciousness towards an AGE OF ENLIGHTENMENT, by believing that BY REUNITING the two POLES of LIGHT (MASCULINE) and dark (feminine) that THE WORLD WOULD AUTOMATICALLY CHANGE? Instead by realizing the two poles for what they are, humans in fact realize what they are capable of doing, both good and bad. Then we can argue but making people aware of their DARK OR LIGHT SIDE, will make them DO LESS BAD. I don't believe that to be true. Humans can never escape their true nature.

And if feminine power is realized for what it is, then the indian women who are getting battered by men in a HINDU CULTURE, are in fact just utilizing their own "feminine power" or the "dark inside of themselves", to feed some sick need, like bullying to feel superior. Which is in fact the epithet of irony, do you think if they had this knowledge of murdering a woman in fact comes down to "realizing the feminine or dark power" inside of yourself, that they would not have done it, or the kick of being a bully outweighed their sense of right and wrong, because it felt good OVERPOWERING another HUMAN BEING (not just a woman)? Fact is they in fact KNOW DEEP DOWN THAT WHAT THEY DO IS WRONG, but they just don't give a fuck, so why try to philosophize justifications for their actions, when they like being assholes!

I wanted to write this on my facebook page about asshole chicks "in" my life who are nothing but conniving snakes:

how do men bond?
they dress up like each other,
how do women bond?
yes let's not get into that, but maybe we should.
men bond by being level headed trying to create camaraderie,
women on the other hand seem to bond with cruel intentions,
like who can be the biggest bitch or the best attention whorish poophead

 Of course I didn't post this, because I don't swear on my facebook page, and secondly I don't want to create more hysteria, by making them face who they really are, they are already confused as it is, you don't want to confuse bitches any more than they already are, because THINKING might just cause them to suffer some fit or seizure!

So to come back to the MYSTERY OF THE MAGNETIC POLES OF THIS PLANET, GIVING AN ANSWER TO THE MYSTERY OF THE UNIVERSE IN GENERAL - LIGHT AND DARK is innate in HUMAN BEINGS, OR SOULS, I don't think that shit will ever change.

Since 2012 nothing has changed, people still delight in killing, exploiting and overpowering other people, because HUMANS LIKE TO "CONSUME" EACH OTHER, much like "fuel" to keep them energized and filling them with some sense of false purpose, to think that the only way they can feel alive is to have complete control over another human being is fucking scary and psychopathic at best.

So that is then why I titled this blog post - not knowing some type of awesome feminine power, but only a bunch of fucked up bitches.

The chances that HUMANS will ever change [even if they have spiritual knowledge of what light and dark really is, and how that relates to GENDERDIZED ENERGIES] are very very low! This shit will never happen, because without light and darkness HUMANS WILL COMPLETELY CEASE TO EXIST, the monotony that will come with it, will just make them ACT OUT MORE, because they feed off drama like cereal is essential to start their fucking day! 

Humans like being assholes, and I think new agers should deal with it, or maybe TRUE SEEKERS such as I, since new agers don't want to realize they are assholes, and see nothing wrong with acting like total assholes in anyway.  

It would be useless to conclude this post by saying "in the end of the day you have a choice to be good or bad, that how you treat others is your karma and how they treat you is their karma", when in fact humans just don't give a fuck either way, they can be aware of right and wrong, but as I said, that is just worth jackshit to them, because being a load of drama queens is much more delightful and "awarding" to them during each life these parasitical beings decide to incarnate!!!!!!!!

Some humor: Fuck the humans 
(please click the link and watch the youtube video if you like to understand the assholes of our glorious human race!!)

Having A Go & Stay At The Otherkin Community

I have been sober or CLEAN from the [online] otherkin community for about 4 months now.

That after being banned by many such sites, and groups, and just trying again...

AGAIN I will reiterate the goal of the otherkin [or new age] community - which seemingly is to recognize the magic in all and everybody, only to later find out that these kind of pages are teeming [swarming] with a bunch of arrogant bigotted asses! Who believe that only certain people can be magical and all divinely knowing when they prove themselves to be the biggest bullies, who enforce what they call "respect" in the most fucked up ways such as extreme attention whoring and getting little fanclubs or groups of braindead trolls to blindly follow them. In the sense that these fans of the superior otherkin, practically lack self-esteem and the ability to think for themselves to save their own lives. 

I am still trying to break my head over the fact as to WHY THIS IS HAPPENING, not only in otherkin communities, but as well in HOLLYWOOD and HIGH SCHOOL, and SOCIETY in general. That people believe they cannot be worth shit if they do not attach themselves to a celebrity or someone that LOOKS IMPORTANT. 

Then I have to go on about the NEW AGE BULLSHIT again, because you see if people like these idiot motherfucking trolls [fans of the superior magical otherkinners] are made to believe that they are worth shit how can THEY EVER REALIZE THEIR OWN DIVINITY to bring about a REAL CHANGE of TIMES, or a SHIFT IN CONSCIOUSNESS as the new age nutters call it?

So what is apparent is that we have a whole lot of people WILLING TO SERVE some "deity" [or person that they deem to be one] but not enough people to serve the right cause! And the whole "you cannot serve two gods" thing comes to mind again, God or man - yet again wouldn't self realization of these idiot troll followers of the new age, come down to the worship of man too? Either way, it looks like a situation that can never be won - they worship someone else or themselves, and the same shit happens. 

So where is this all going? I really don't know, I guess not anywhere fast. Man always wants to be divine, but refuse to acknowledge its creator before itself. But how can you acknowledge yourself if you don't realise your creator first?

Hey I am just a girl looking for answers, and fed up with spiritual bullshit. The new age movement is just as full of shit than any christian, hindu, muslim etc. CULT(s).

Before I go off topic - the reason for writing this is to say that by DISTANCING MYSELF from [THE NOISE OF] BULLSHIT, I realized that I don't need that shit, or no person in their right mind would want to be part of a DAY-IN AND DAY-OUT trolling game, between members of a group who lie about seeing magic everywhere, and refuse to see it in anyone but themselves - as a sort of coping mechanism, because the moment they must see something special in someone else, they MUST ACTUALLY START being responsible for WHAT THEY SEE IN SOMEONE ELSE, and need to honour it. As they say "it takes more energy to be good, to share and care, than it takes to be an evil son of a bitch!' Yeah so much for the new ager's willing to work for the light - it is just too much fucking work, that they cannot seem to work into their schedule of self-praising online.

The moment you distance yourself from bullshit, instead of participating in it, you begin to see how totally fatal their actions are, and where such groups terribly go wrong in their search of spiritual truth, if that is at all their goal for being there, which I believe in most cases are not, and that they are just there mocking spirituality to feed some lower or base psychological need such as vying for attention because they don't get that shit in real life, to appease that type of "hunger". Well dressing up as an otherkin persona and pretending to be something you are in fact not, will NOT get you the ATTENTION you really want. It would only give you some sort of superficial feed, instead of going to the core of your problems, that really need to be touched.

How do you know the new age is toxic? When basic human needs are distorted by BULLSHIT!

FAMILY MAKES ME SICK

It is a great shame that I have to write this during a Christmas season, when families are supposed to come close and actually be there for each other.

But in my life, the family who I thought would always be there for me, is simply incapable of being there for me on an emotional level at all.

Let's say due to our religious differences - them being dumb christian zealots who cannot go a day without NOT thinking for themselves, and me being the agnostic crazy cousin. I don't want anything financially from them as well, heaven forbid I don't want to create more ties than the TOXIC EMOTIONAL BONDS I already worked so hard to sever.

So the story goes one of my family members asked me if I would come to visit them, via a request on facebook. At first I said yes, but then I was thinking to myself, going through my memory bank of the past five years - why I initially severed all contact with them. My stomach started to act up and I felt like I was going to vomit. Which is strange since the whole week I feel constipated, then I hear I must go to visit the family, and all of a sudden I get diarrhea and fall into a dark cloud of anxiety.

And to top it all off - this week I almost broke my ankle and a ligament was torn. Now I must wear this supporting cast they call a moonboot. And I know how my uncle and grandparents would greet me - first ask me what happened to my foot, then tell me how stupid I am for falling, and then laughing at the situation I am in. These people seriously lack any sense of compassion - maybe it is due to their psycho-sociopathic religious relations. Or just because they are limp brained pricks, as simple as that. 

Or the fact that my aunt thinks I want to seduce my uncle and want to compete with me in a childish manner. This family situation is just fucked up. I just think my aunt is intimidated by me or even jealous - something that has nothing to do with me actually wanting her stupid ass husband. More over I believe it is due to  her religious upbringing, and her strict parents, that made her hate herself so much, suffering from a complete lack of self-esteem due to religious indoctrination - that she is INTIMIDATED and THREATENED by anyone who she feels challenges her self-worth. This is also unchristian like to falsely suspect and wanting to look down on someone because YOU HAVE A PROBLEM with yourself. 

It is absolutely not my problem if my aunt chooses to live a shallow life - and feel the need to compete with a deep and free spirited soul like I am.  Someone (me) who released the very bonds that keeps her (my aunt)  captive. Yes I believe it is ENVY and not jealousy, for the latter requires STRESS that someone is going to take away what  you have. She wants however what I have - the person that she can never be, due to keeping herself mentally imprisoned by her own distorted belief structures.


I sure as fuck don't want to go there on a Saturday, to sleepover, and go to CHURCH with them on Sunday. First I look as if I just escaped war alive with my foot cast, and second I don't have time for that bullshit. These people are not deep, they are superficial and judgmental - the type of people who would rather buy their kids braces to make them feel good than actually talk to them to find out what really bothers them inside.

My aunt is 16 years my senior, yet she still lives in a childlike mentality - due to her always wanting to impress SOCIETY, and always wanting to do what is right according to WHAT SHE THINKS, people thinks, is RIGHT for her to live by.

I used to like her better, when she was unmarried, childless and free spirited and there was more room for development. She seems stuck today. And her dreams have become unattainable by herself. And she lives through her children and social status being married to a wealthy businessman.

I hope I never end up like her, to crucify my soul on society's lame standards. Sad fact is - her husband is just as shallow as fuck as she is. Who wants that, who needs this type of relationship? Only a zombie, slave to this world. They are so concerned with pleasing the world and society, that they completely lost track of themselves AND THEIR CHILDREN who are doomed to fit into the mold they parents created for them to live by.

And of course there is always my father who compares my siblings and I to our cousins, telling us how fucked up we are and how cool they are - then I simply remind him "well these assholes need to grow up some time, they are just crashes waiting to happen". Some fucks need to come back to earth, and some even die before that can happen and their soul can attain true depth. There is no satisfaction in leaving this earth a shallow piece of trash, and getting at heaven's gates EMPTY HANDED. The difference between my father's brother's children and my brother and I, is that WE tasted the ground a long time ago, we actually grew up faster, due to having to deal with REALITY as it is, and not as society portrays it. Can we say that we are more humble than they are, more humility? Definitely.

Let's take for example my brother and I grew up with a father who is emotionally explosive, yay to the scorpio trait. My father always manifested his emotions in some sick way, he never really let it get bottled up. Which is different from his family or brothers and sisters, because they would rather keep their shit in and veiled or clouded from their children. My father is thus different, yet similar to his siblings in some sick way.  Point being made is that if it was not for HIM making his children deal with his emotional suffering, we would not have grown as the people we are today, laid back and even empathetic etc. Is this a benefit of child abuse? LMFAO

My father's siblings' children on the other hand, well their parents fear their emotions more than my father ever did, and failed to express them so that people can really understand them, because it is a sin AND improper you know and then I hear my father's MOTTO: I WON'T LIVE A LIE.

Anyway I stayed at home, and let my parents go on their own together with my little sister to the FAMILY, even though my aunt prepared my bed because I said I was going, I just felt too sick to go there again, it never changes, the story is always the same - the same shallow shit plays off every time. Now I UNDERSTAND why my father always expressed his emotions so vehemently - because that family simply NEVER TALKED TO EACH OTHER, other than the casual and stupid small talk. Well fuck that shit, I don't have time for that shit, I deal with it at my work. I need some time alone too you know, where I can be REAL WITH MYSELF. And luckily I can do that on my weekends. I don't want to waste it on the same superficial shit I deal with everyday.

sometimes dreaming about fucked up shit

You have to be funny about it and honest about it. You can't leave yourself out of that mix. You have to be honest enough to say, I'm that messed-up one in the family. ~ Louie Anderson quotes

Indigo Children is a Satanic Conspiracy.

 I found this article today and it rang true being fed up with people claiming to be indigos and treating people like shit:

Topic started on 1-9-2005 @ 05:11 AM by ben91069

Before I begin, if this isn't in the right thread, then - Mods, by all means move it.

After reviewing various threads of the so-called "Indigo Children" movement, I have concluded that it is a deception supported by satanic forces.

The supporters of this movement are simply blinded by reality and believe that they are special and that their characteristics are a source of future salvation for the world, when in fact they go against every grain of what a loving God stands for.

Whether you believe in a higher power or not, Indigo Children attribute their behavior to be anti-social, rebellious, delusions of royalty, self-centeredness, and creative.

It is a following of like minds who are trying to legitimize being nothing more than going against society in every way.

Some websites devoted to Indigos claim that this is what humans are going to develop into, and I have no doubts about this, as it describes Biblically what people eventually become; selfish, loathful beings who are lovers of themselves and are only happy in the company of other self-centered people.

It is no surprise Indigo's attract one another.

These websites also attribute Indigo's as being misdiagnosed as being ADD or ADHD. With experience with these types of persons, I would agree. But, this diagnosis is not incorrect. The symptoms do not justify the Indigo's as being special, but just undisciplined. In fact, the Indigo movement tries to discount personal responsibility as some form of divine seed they were born with.

With this type of defense, any criminal could say they are just an Indigo and it is what humans are destined to.

There is nothing Indigo's have to offer to help humanity. There is nothing in their defined character that shows they care about others more than themselves, which is what will contribute to the fall of all mankind.

[edit on 1-9-2005 by ben91069]

Apparently, the Indigo color is attributed to the characteristics of these types of people who are catagorized by the type person they are. Honestly, the color would just be a marker for their personality. It is supposed to be seen in the aura of the individual, if you believe they can actually be seen. This isn't primarily the purpose of this post. Indigo is a cross between blue and purple, and by some spiritual people represents has a meaning or value to what type of person you are.

My belief is that they may have an aura or "color", but this color represents not an enlightening of the human race, but a generation of people who follow Satan - by deception. I believe they are being subjected to Satanic powers and being decieved into thinking they are a salvation, when in fact, they are our downfall.

[edit on 1-9-2005 by ben91069]

  

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Does it strike anyone else as strange that these people who supposedly are here to help all humanity are so disconnected from it? How can they help if they do not care about us? It just seems to me that the things that supposedly mark an Indigo Child are the exact opposite of what is needed to accomplish the goal. I agree that raising the level of enlightenment on Earth is a worthy goal, but how can selfish, self-absorbed children accomplish this?

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Fuck The Church

The Holy Trinity Of The One World Religion

I have come to know that the three major religions of the world are all ripped off from Pagan "religions and dogma"... And that Christianity, the jewish faith, and the Islam are all ripped off versions of each other.

Not to mention how many people were killed in the name of it... Pagans were subject to bloodshed, which I find extremely ironic since the bible, torah and quaran are all based on pagan lore.

So this is the "holy trinity" of the world people. These religions exist not to oppose each other, as they are on the same side, but to confuse people, by making them ignorant of the Truth.

Where religion is used as a mass brainwashing mechanism, to keep people obedient and ignorant of the true "occult natures" of the world's religious leaders. Where to withhold occult knowledge from the masses means to "enforce and empower it behind the scenes" without the masses having any knowledge thereof... They cannot see what is really going on, because they do not know what "occult/demonic influence or power" means. How can they discern spirits if they lack knowledge of what is good and what is bad spirits. If they cannot see it for what it is, they will be subject to its "influence", they can thus not break free from such psychological control, and pursue a true path of seeking and experience the Truth, which they already claim to know based on their organized religious cult.

I have read that these reptilian/nephilim demons create energy vortexes, channels through which energy of people's devotion to these lies feed them - meaning that each time a muslim prays to the lie 6 times a day, or a christian preacher wastes his energy on the pulpit, they Feed the Jewish "vortex" of energy vampirism... Giving them more energy, feeding the Father of the lie all the way.

But I am deeply concerned seeing that there is a fourth religion in the uprising called the New Age Movement. The NAM also works in a similar way as to "stealing energy"... The more new age products you buy, or put your faith and thoughts into a lie, the More you feed the system.

The more people are given free rein to indulge in their Egos and not seeing things clearly as a true enlightened mind is supposed to, the more you are ruled by these "dark forces" of the world... Not only does it boost the Egos and the pride of people, but it also takes something in return, THEIR MINDS!!!!

The same way with the other religions: islam says "go to war for me and get some ten thousand willing wh0res in heaven, die for our Allah and you get laid!" Cheap deal when there's nothing holy about prostitution don't you think? Especially when they kill homosexuals in Allah's name - guys who aren't interested in houris - WOMEN... Lmao, there must be man whores in heaven too...

And christians go on "hey you must be a hypocrite, love your social image, tell lies about who you really are just fit in, if you do not LIE and pretend to be a sweet little angel, we will make you a social reject and stigmatize you with the label of mental illness all over your arse, not even archangel Gabriel's mercy will be able to wash you clean after you pull the stunt of being "real" and true to yourself!!!!"

And the new ager goes "oh love n light n peace: let's bring unity among humanity as whole" - and meanwhile back at the ranch is the only UNITY they bring about, the UNION OF GLOBAL DECEIT, SCAM and FRAUD!

If the jewish religion, was truly just part of the other two major organized religious systems, then the NAM is truly the third peanut in the packet. The rise of the anti-christ for a third time big "boner" only to be shot down.

When islam didn't work, when christianity didn't work, path was made for a new thing of Satan to work...since the NAM is more "tolerating" of any shit than any prior religion before... Christianity and Islam sired or gave birth to more rebels and social deviants than expected, since they were too strict in their brainwashing and violence of mental and physical abuse, that some people started to actually think for themselves, understanding what lies behind the true "powers enforced", viewing the government and its ways of mental control over the masses with more clarity each passing age. Well now we have a NEW AGE approaching us, where the amount of rebels are exceptionally minimized, since the allure of cheap magic is just too great for the Ego to resist.

In a New Age were everyone is allowed to be "angels", "messiahs", "aliens" and what have you - anything you want to be Satan offers to you on a silver plate to please your Ego in every way possible... And I find it even more ironic that some people can choose to become vampires, but what they do not realize is that if they pretend to be "messiahs" propping people's heads full of lies and ignorance that they are in fact being part of the mass global vampirism alliance... The NAM dragging people into a pit of ignorance, feeding the lie all the way, the more people buy into NEW AGE Bullshit, keeping the Lie or system in Power that they think they are bringing down with their hypocritical effort of bringing heaven to earth yet charge billions of dollars each year on their tarot cards, angel therapy classes, books and various other new age workshops etc.

Yes how sick is that? Preaching ascension and moving away from Babylon (the material world and its gods) while making a killing on being a "new age guru" luring people like flies with that sweet new age psychobabble blah blahs.

We know that the jews just love the money and that their system of mass brainwashing never failed them, and now they believe that the answer to silencing rebels lies in the next best thing - the NAM... Because not only does it promise alleviation of the material world, but also personal divine-hood for all whose Egos are big enough to fall for it... I don't get it though - people are being swindled saying it is the end of the "material illusion" and that all can be worldly kings like them?! Huh? Sounds just like another version of Satanism - silencing the rebels in exchange for the promise of a shitload of power!!!!!

Huh? Seriously... No true rebel has so much pride that it blinds him to the Truth, binding him to the lie!!!!!

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During times of universal deceit, telling the truth becomes a revolutionary act. ~ George Orwell