I can tell you what is wrong with you.
You are not going insane because you are special.
I mean it is not like you are being possessed by the devil or a demon.
It is not like your chakras are igniting and therefore your entire equilibrium is now screwed, and you cannot get back to feeling normal, balanced and healthy.
It is not like when Jesus died on the cross, you were next in line to the prophets' throne.
It has really nothing to do with you being special at all.
No, it is part of some narcissistic, selfish sickness of your dark psyche, that wants to be loved.
That wants to stand out in the crowd, that seeks acknowledgment for being far more admired than your fellow brother or sister. Like being part of the High School cool kids group, having a second chance at High School fame.
To you it is nothing but part of a human vanity, a common sickness suffered by all of mankind. Yet you will never acknowledge it to your equally sick as fuck followers.
YOU WANT TO BE LOVED, YOU WANT ATTENTION ABOVE ANYTHING.
AND YOU WILL DO ANYTHING TO GET IT, EVEN LIE TO LOOK COOL OR STRANGE, STUCK ON THE FRINGE.
Or gather your little group of followers ONLINE to feel you miraculously accomplished something in your pathetic life.
What are you trying to hide?
That you are a weak ass motherfucker with a low self-esteem and an INFERIORITY COMPLEX that drives your SUPERIORITY COMPLEX and bullying of others, so that they can feel like NOTHING, so that you may feel like everything.
I just saw a scene from some movie, where a boy is the main character, he was swimming in a pool, swimming his own fucking race, competing against himself, and everyone was standing outside of the pool, cheering him on, telling him he can do it, oh all the eyes on him, HE IS THE SPECIAL SNOWFLAKE AND DIFFERENT FROM EVERYBODY ELSE ??? --- UHHM NO, THAT IS A FUCKING LIE.. what the fuck right?
Let me tell you how this new age bullshit works - the reptoid fuckers get children who are good robots, to do the devil's bidding - by that I mean, like they would do literally everything and anything to reach that preferred state perfection, without giving it a second thought, without really asking what the fuck they are doing in the first place. Let's say, they want to be a famous scientist or doctor or lawyer or priest, because you know that shit is good for the ego, they would just learn the theories like poems that must be recited to sound super cool, and to get the fame their pride allows them to feed on. ( RIP DOGMA THAT BRAIN KILLING FUCKER. )
Let's take for example a few Reptilian whores like those pop sensations such as Britney Spears, Beyonce Knowles, Taylor Swift, Miley Cyrus just to name a few. They have this image of perfection in their heads, that these Snakes, tell them is the epithet ("top point") of stardom and divinity. They will do anything, sell their souls, to get there, whatever it takes - even take it out on their bodies, minds and souls. As long as they have pride, they seemingly need nothing else in this world.
But they are FAR FROM PERFECT, when they reach that pinnacle points in their life, when they reach that BELOVED (ROYALTY) STATUS in life, because when they were busy PLEASING SOCIETY, their SOULS SUFFERED under the pressure, their MINDS SO TO SAY COLLAPSED in one CRUCIAL region (of humanity) while they were USING another part of the brain to get what they wanted.
The illusion of perfection, ego and pride, is what keep these reptoid raped people going. It is also the same thing that makes them bullies of their fellow man, for not living up to these fucked up social standards. THEY FEED OFF the energy generated, when someone makes a mistake even amongst their own flock. They like feeding off feelings such as suffering from inferiority complexes, which they in fact all do, and get mindfucked to think it normal. They thus like bullying each other, in terms of not living up to the standards of what they perceive to be those standards and principles of perfection. It all comes down to them really showing how insecure they are, of how they fear one misstep on their behalf, of how much they really fear being a crack on the matrix or illusion of perfection, how they really fear to be truly DIFFERENT AND UNIQUE. Because what they fear most is not being "good enough", as in "ever", they fear non-acceptance, when in fact they ARE NEVER GOOD ENOUGH, no matter how hard they try to maintain these wayward standards of social "perfection".
NOBODY IS FUCKING PERFECT - IF WE WERE ALL PERFECT, THEN THIS TYPE OF FUCKED UP SOCIAL PARADIGMS WOULD HAVE NEVER EXISTED FOR MANKIND TO LIVE BY.
What is my point with this story? I don't know really, maybe it is to state a fact here - that to the reptoids and the system you will never be good enough, because that is the mental chains they put their "slaves" in. It is a form of blackmail and exploitation. Like you give us all of you and more, and we will never tell the world your greatest weakness ~~ that you just deeply want to be loved and accepted. And then I can't say here "loved for what you are", because clearly if you live to please the system you want to be loved for something you are clearly not, and never will be.
reading my own words, it sounds a bit befuddled, but it makes sense if you think about the entire setup ~~ being part of the "matrix society" you live and work to be loved by a SYSTEM that would never regard you as good enough, because you can never reach the impossible aspirations of their version of perfection.
THE PERFECTION OF THE MATRIX IS A LIE, BUT NOT A GREATER LIE THAN THE EGO OF MAN AND THE ABILITY TO LIE TO ITSELF.
THESE DAYS BEING A TRUE SPECIAL SNOWFLAKE YOU MUST ENDEAVOR TO TRULY BE DIFFERENT THAN THE REST, FUCK THE COOL KIDS, FUCK THEIR STANDARDS ~ BECAUSE THE ONLY THING THAT IS "SPECIAL" OR UNIQUE ABOUT THEM IS THEIR HIVE MINDED SPECIAL SNOWFLAKE SYNDROME, WHEN THEY ALL STRIVE TO ACT THE SAME, NO ONE IS SPECIAL IN THEIR RANKS IN ANYMORE.
Apparently if you believe in things such as SOULS, heaven forbid that you actually believe in having a SPIRIT, or believe in heaven in the real sense of the word, instead of it just being a place where you go after you die without actually doing some research on WHERE THE FUCK ever it is you are exactly planning to go hereafter - you are labelled a psychotic schizophrenic by society and the medical establishments.
It makes so much sense seeing that PSYCHOPATHS (your common zealot and conformist) have no empathy or minds of their own, that having a SOUL is of no use to them, and WOULD never make sense to the "robotic" state of mind.
I fucking hate society. Mainly because it is such a fake setup. Although we are told that we come here to learn, from heaven into a physical body to continue our spiritual evolution. I just don't see how if souls come back time and again, why they fail each time, making the same mistakes and holding the same lame ass beliefs that keeps holding them back. I guess some - with actual souls - must come back more times than once to realize what they refuse to believe through hardships etc. But it doesn't seem to help for some, suffering does not change them at all. It keeps their souls dark and "inactive".
Okay back to the title of this blog post - it has been a long time since I actually wrote a blog post here. This topic has been mauling through my head these past couple of months. Thinking I don't need to write it, if they really want to know, they would do their own research on this fucked up system which appears to "heal" people from mental illnesses only to act as a overall silent killer of the human body. Today I decided fuck it, let's do this.
I was prescribed anti-psychotics, in this case a pill called Geodon, simply because I thought outside of the box and believed in PEOPLE HAVING SOULS, because I believed there is a reality outside of the physical reality, because I questioned the GODFORSAKEN SYSTEM, which is out to make people believe that outside of the parameters of their "box" there is nothing else for people to look forward to. It just proves how little value these motherfuckers actually put on the human soul. That your feelings and emotions do not count, that you are nothing as a person, but everything as a law abiding citizen (synonymous with braindead conformist zombie).
Thankfully I stopped drinking that fucking pills, because deep down, in my awakened state of "kundalini rising" I knew that shit was fucking poison, it was only five years after that I came upon an article saying that there is an OFFICIAL FDA warning out against anti-psychotics. Drinking that lethal poison could cause a fatal skin condition that can lead to fatal organ failure and diabetes.
I knew a friend I met online, she said she had spirit guides, but she also firmly believed that she had bipolar disorder and that she is depressive-psychotic to this day. Since she was diagnosed as such and had to go on an early retirement due to being declared medically unfit by mental health professionals. I told her she was deceiving herself and had to stop drinking the pills she was prescribed to take. I find it strange that someone with spirit guides, would lack the knowledge to see things as they really are. Or maybe the spirit guides are just sitting there, waiting in the background for her to wake the fuck up.
Since it is comfortable to live in a bubble where one does not need to take self-responsibility, where one does not need to define and find yourself. Where one does not need to do real and heavy soul searching. Because that shit is obviously hard as fuck. For some even terrifying. The same with fucking psychiatrists, psychologists, preachers etc - they are afraid to think for themselves, they keep to the rules that makes them "diagnose" and "pinpoint" people as they are told to do. Even when it comes to themselves. They need parameters to keep themselves snugly fit into a box, which makes "sense" to them, that requires no work on their part further on. And that in fact comes down to nothing but mental stagnation. And these are the assholes who deem themselves smart, and who abuse the Hippocratic oath - they don't help people, they help them die as "people" by breaking their souls down, piece by piece with their labels and stereotypes until there is nothing left of the person.
It is also ironic that these "smart" people would actually induce this type of treatment without researching the side effects thereof. Monkey see as monkey do, with their automatic and mechanical implementation thereof. Showing once again, proof of lazy minds and system dependent individuals, thinking that no harm can come from just doing as the system tells them to do.
It is always a massive relief, that the system actually acknowledges that their own SYSTEM is failing itself. Yet some people would still like to believe that the SYSTEM is not against ITSELF, and never plotting against its people. Because that is the easy life, a lack of questioning adds more locks to the comfort zone. Some people die in that comfort zone, one has to wonder, isn't it some curse they take with them to the other side, how can they benefit themselves and others with a barren soul? These are just plain dark souls, that due to their own" stick in the mud"-beliefs makes other people's lives intolerable. They don't want to see themselves, but they want to make life hell for those who do. Wonder why? Why do they want to come in the picture of the lives of those who are truly spiritual, when they don't want anything to do with spirituality? It makes me think once again - to learn to avoid these types of people at all costs, do not tell an idiot what they don't want to hear, unless you know it would make a real impact. However twisted that may sound.
If people fear to have souls, they fear to have hearts - hence the lack of empathy, soul and open-mindedness. I guess each of these dark souls need to realize to themselves what awful and unbearable people they have become. Change is a personal choice. No one is made this way or that way, no one is born a certain way, no one is born without a choice to CHANGE or to become a better (brighter shining) person.
