NEW AGE NOT EVEN WORTH A 100 DOLLARS

You new agers have officially been boo-ed by Listverse - apparently the new age lacks the "wow factor", not even Doreen Virtue or Abraham Hicks gets a "yay" from editorial companies. Not even the wiccans or the Dolphins got a thumbs up..for fucks sakes. omfg. When the WORLD SAYS A FUCK YOU TO THE NEW AGE......... ***SMILES****

This is the list I send in, as an experiment:

10 New Age Cults & Practices Said To Raise Your Awareness

Bizarre spiritual practices new agers indulge in, to find a sense of belonging and acceptance. Which is in most cases lead to more confusion than actual spiritual enlightenment. Bizarre new age practices of the new age mind. Does it lead to wholesome experience? This list conveys the importance of research before joining a cult.

1)  Members of the International Starseed Community under the Ashtar Command

The cult is also known as the Galactic Federation of Light.  There are many websites created in its Honor where like minded individuals, believing themselves to be aliens, indigo children and starseeds can go to raise global awareness in an an attempt to save the world. Some new age definitions here (Link 1)[1] For one of their facebook pages go here – (Link 2)[2]

This movement particularly peaked during 2008 and 2012 with all the conspiracies about the aliens or the galactic federation of light (the all knowing beings and protectors of the universe looking out for the inhabitants of earth), coming to save the world during a full disclosure and apocalyptic period.

There is also many opposition groups against this movement, due to alien conspiracies linking it to governmental disinformation and media corruption. See one such page here (Link 3)[3]

2)  Christian Religion

This is probably one of the most ancient religions, but can be classified as new age. Mainly because the new agers is all about unconditional love, like the Christ. But as Ghandi said "I love your Christ, but you are so unlike your Christ!". This religion is a breeding ground for all sorts of hypocrisy, and underhand corruption schemes. There are a lot of Christians who protest, and have webpages created saying that they are not at all linked to the new age cult, when the Christian religion is a cult itself (Link 4)[4]. And of course we have the new agers in denial of being part of a cult themselves (Link 5)[5]

3)  The Past Life Regression Therapy

The aim is to get in touch with all that you are. To understand where you came from to build a better self for you in this particular life. To learn from your past mistakes, in a past life, to raise your spiritual awareness and to bring the new found energy into your new life to better the world around you. There are however dangers connected to this if not approach with caution. Some people may get stuck in the past and get addicted to hypnosis, and refuse to release their fears and weakness of a past life in order to actually get a move on and do something about what they had learned. [See Article about the dangers involved with such a practice if not approached with a sense of being grounded (Link 6)[6] and a youtube video explaining past life regression in detail (Link 7)[7]]

4)   The Otherkin community

Welcome to the cult, where you are allowed to be anything you want to be. From archangels incarnate, demons, aliens, angels, mermaids, werewolves (which they call themselves "therian") et cetera.

But there are many problems in the otherkin community like bullying and who is the biggest "other"-kin [see youtube video here from an otherkinner herself who believes herself to be part animal (Link 8)[8]]

This is a subculture of the new age, and fueled by new world order conspiracy theories. Apparently it is part of the New World Order's hybridization program. The conspiracy goes that Chimeras are being created by evil scientists in labs, and that human DNA is slowly merging with animal DNA, to alter human DNA to make humans more susceptible to mind control. [read more about chimeras (human- animal hybrids) here (Link 9)[9]] There are many youtube videos on this topic, feel free to google it.

5)  The Indigo Children (Indigo Society)

There is a special website for the indigo children, namely the indigosociety.com (Link 10)[10] There is also many new age workshops for only the indigo children and their parents who wishes to make some money out of their weird child. Supposedly how they are the children of the rainbow here to save the world from damnation and destruction, when their very nature denotes a rebellious and destructive attitude. These are the special ones, the chosen ones, the only hope for mankind to pay it forward. [see articles here how to identify them – (link 11)[11]and what they are exactly as in a type of alien (angel) hybrid human (link 12)[12]]

Many conspiracy theories suggest that this is also part of some NEW WORLD ORDER agenda, by making people think they are more special than they are; to instead of raising awareness actually spread more hostility amongst society by enforcing the ego-principle and not the spiritual principle of ONENESS. Some even go so far as to say that these individuals are not angels but demonically possessed [see article here (link 13)[13]]

6)   Kundalini Awakening - attaining Christ Consciousness

You must go to India, and follow a swami. Get your orange or saffron robe on, to tell the world that you are done with materialism. And that you are all about self-love and into living in peace with everyone and yourself. You must Go through extensive yoga practices to raise the Sacred Serpent in your spine to raise your consciousness. All to make you more spiritually aware and more in tune with the spiritual world around you, so that you may experience total oneness with everything in and around you. But this practice can spin out of control, if being grounded is not taken seriously. [Read more about people who attempted this successfully and became kundalini survivors instead of people stuck in a fairy tale world believing themselves to be Christ here to save the world – (link 14)[14]

7)   Wiccan community

This is another subculture of the new age. Predominantly believing themselves to be white witches, and abiding by the wiccan rede of the rule of three.  It states that whatever energy a person puts out into the world, be it positive or negative, will be returned to that person three times. Despite its magical allure it practically nothing but a nature based religion, another word for a nature-loving-tree-hugging-hippie. [See here (Link 15)[15]]

8)  Angel Therapy Classes and a Course in Miracles

You can go to classes that will teach you how to get in touch with angels and aliens, or whatever mystical creature you want to get in touch with, such as a mermaid or goddess of volcanoes for example. All brought to you by Doreen Virtuee. That teaches people how to be angels incarnate, how to communicate with angels in other realms, and how to even become a witch or wise one, that can wield the supernatural powers that she holds - at a hefty material price of course, in spite of the Doreen Virtue movement portraying itself as not being materially motivated.

You can also buy assorted card decks and angel cards which is the modern version of Tarot Cards. But you have to have money, to buy them, before you can get in touch with the other world. Money in this case means a quick fix for self-realization and spirit communication. [see her website here for more information – (link 16)[16]]

She has been criticized by many skeptics however [ see here (LINK 17)[17] and here (LINK 18)[18]]

9)  The Law of Attraction

It is also part of the new age market where new age gurus could have pocketed in on the new age wave and/or craze of the time. The creator Abraham Hicks taught that that which you think you can create. And positive thoughts create positive outcomes and bad thoughts create bad events in your life. His books and workshops practically made him a millionaire.

Many people supposedly committed suicide for following his teachings and never getting along in the real world, there are blogs that speaks out strongly about the effects of this dangerous practice and the casualties that were involved [see here (LINK 19)[19]and another blog (LINK 20)[20]]

The creator of this movement also had his little card decks like Doreen Virtue, supposedly you cannot be wise if you don't pay for the cards and your life will go down a spiral of failure if you exist without them. The creator died of Cancer, did he will his own death? Despite not believing in fate and destiny?

10) Swimming with Dolphins

This one must be the most Bizarre. Swimming with dolphins would save the world from apocalyptic disaster. Due to the dolphin's large brain capacity and sonar abilities they probably linked it with the whole raising of consciousness agenda. And somehow this therapy could improve the mental state of disabled children too. There are even water birth programs with the dolphins acting as midwives; to assist the mother giving birth in a highly spiritual ritual. Probably to give birth to another indigo child to save the world.

 But these movements have been criticized and targeted for animal cruelty disputes. Due to the fact that these loving new agers, are making great profit out of keeping these sea creatures captive while feigning their mystical healing properites. [See article here -

(link 21)[21]]

WEBSITES CREATED FOR PEOPLE RECOVERING FROM THE TRAUMA BEING PART OF THESE NEW AGE MOVEMENTS[22]

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[1] LINK 1 http://www.crystalinks.com/childrensic.html

[2] LINK 2 https://www.facebook.com/the.galactic.federation.of.light

[3] LINK 3 https://www.facebook.com/pages/The-DARK-TRUTH-About-the-Galactic-Federation-of-Light/338271919594761?sk=timeline

[4] LINK 4 http://www.victorious.org/newage.htm

[5] LINK 5 http://www.religioustolerance.org/newage.htm

[6] LINK 6 http://positivelyrebellious.com/reasons-dangers-past-life-regression/

[7] LINK 7 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9fnew0bhrNI

[8] LINK 8 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ksVP667k-C8

[9] LINK 9 http://thetruthwins.com/archives/human-animal-hybrids-sick-and-twisted-chimeras-are-being-created-in-labs-all-over-the-planet

[10] LINK 10 http://indigosociety.com/

[11] LINK 11 http://www.mindopenerz.com/are-you-an-indigo-11-traits-of-indigo-children/

[12] LINK 12 http://www.crystalinks.com/indigochildren.html

[13] LINK 13 https://newagedeception.wordpress.com/2010/05/19/indigo-children-or-demonic-oppressed/

[14] LINK 14 http://www.umaatantra.com/ut/10-characteristics-kundalini/]

[15] LINK 15 http://wicca.com/celtic/wicca/wicca.htm

[16] LINK 16 http://www.angeltherapy.com/

[17] LINK 17 http://skeptico.blogs.com/skeptico/2005/04/angel_came_down.html

[18] LINK 18 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DI5b8BDFlMQ

[19] LINK 19 http://cosmicconnie.blogspot.com/2011_12_01_archive.html

[20] LINK 20 http://abrahamhicksfraud.blogspot.com/

[21] LINK 21 http://livinggreenmag.com/2013/07/09/mother-nature/swimming-with-dolphins-21st-century-new-age-therapy-or-just-another-scam/

[22] link 22 http://www.snakelyone.com/12step.htm

Feminine Power? Never heard of her but I do know A whole lot of Bad Bitches

I got this link in my inbox today: Shakti is the Agent of All Change.

I decided to write a post today, since it has been so long that I actually wrote on this blog about new age bullshit and all the FUN that comes with it, mainly because I WAS JUST SICK of trying to decipher and dealing with bullshit which appeared to be meaningless. Maybe it was my hormones or something, or just generally being fed up with FUCKED UP HUMANS and SOCIETY and its mental and "spiritual" plagues, that continuously stirs humanity down a shit hole spiral.

I am just here, thinking as USUAL, about how incredibly fucked up this human race is, and how delusional it would be to wish that a REAL CHANGE would ever hit planet earth, such as the SHIFT IN CONSCIOUSNESS or the awakening of some Christ consciousness.

Then I read this article about the Mystery of the Universe lying within the Magnetic poles of planet earth.

The assholes who honestly think HUMANS will ever change their ways are definitely out of touch with the "UNIVERSAL POLES OF GOOD AND BAD, LIGHT AND DARK" etc.  Even so if the whole creation came into existence because of "the masculine and feminine principle", that there would have been no CREATION if it weren't for these two energies of "Yin and YANG" being interconnected in some very sick, abstract and absurd way. That because of this alchemy of the UNIVERSE that there would be no LIFE per se.

And then it hit me like a stone between my eyes, feeling the PRIDE of the GIANT GOLIATH being shattered by the "insignificant" man DAVID, who is capable of being GOOD [God fearing man] and ultimately MURDER.

The notion, that these SICK AND TWISTED new agers seem to nurture about HUMANS BEING ABLE to distance or disassociate themselves from the dark side in themselves, by BALANCING THE FEMININE AND MASCULINE ENERGIES within themselves, is ABSURD AND TOTALLY NONSENSICAL. How do you wish to accomplish the impossible, a total shift in consciousness towards an AGE OF ENLIGHTENMENT, by believing that BY REUNITING the two POLES of LIGHT (MASCULINE) and dark (feminine) that THE WORLD WOULD AUTOMATICALLY CHANGE? Instead by realizing the two poles for what they are, humans in fact realize what they are capable of doing, both good and bad. Then we can argue but making people aware of their DARK OR LIGHT SIDE, will make them DO LESS BAD. I don't believe that to be true. Humans can never escape their true nature.

And if feminine power is realized for what it is, then the indian women who are getting battered by men in a HINDU CULTURE, are in fact just utilizing their own "feminine power" or the "dark inside of themselves", to feed some sick need, like bullying to feel superior. Which is in fact the epithet of irony, do you think if they had this knowledge of murdering a woman in fact comes down to "realizing the feminine or dark power" inside of yourself, that they would not have done it, or the kick of being a bully outweighed their sense of right and wrong, because it felt good OVERPOWERING another HUMAN BEING (not just a woman)? Fact is they in fact KNOW DEEP DOWN THAT WHAT THEY DO IS WRONG, but they just don't give a fuck, so why try to philosophize justifications for their actions, when they like being assholes!

I wanted to write this on my facebook page about asshole chicks "in" my life who are nothing but conniving snakes:

how do men bond?
they dress up like each other,
how do women bond?
yes let's not get into that, but maybe we should.
men bond by being level headed trying to create camaraderie,
women on the other hand seem to bond with cruel intentions,
like who can be the biggest bitch or the best attention whorish poophead

 Of course I didn't post this, because I don't swear on my facebook page, and secondly I don't want to create more hysteria, by making them face who they really are, they are already confused as it is, you don't want to confuse bitches any more than they already are, because THINKING might just cause them to suffer some fit or seizure!

So to come back to the MYSTERY OF THE MAGNETIC POLES OF THIS PLANET, GIVING AN ANSWER TO THE MYSTERY OF THE UNIVERSE IN GENERAL - LIGHT AND DARK is innate in HUMAN BEINGS, OR SOULS, I don't think that shit will ever change.

Since 2012 nothing has changed, people still delight in killing, exploiting and overpowering other people, because HUMANS LIKE TO "CONSUME" EACH OTHER, much like "fuel" to keep them energized and filling them with some sense of false purpose, to think that the only way they can feel alive is to have complete control over another human being is fucking scary and psychopathic at best.

So that is then why I titled this blog post - not knowing some type of awesome feminine power, but only a bunch of fucked up bitches.

The chances that HUMANS will ever change [even if they have spiritual knowledge of what light and dark really is, and how that relates to GENDERDIZED ENERGIES] are very very low! This shit will never happen, because without light and darkness HUMANS WILL COMPLETELY CEASE TO EXIST, the monotony that will come with it, will just make them ACT OUT MORE, because they feed off drama like cereal is essential to start their fucking day! 

Humans like being assholes, and I think new agers should deal with it, or maybe TRUE SEEKERS such as I, since new agers don't want to realize they are assholes, and see nothing wrong with acting like total assholes in anyway.  

It would be useless to conclude this post by saying "in the end of the day you have a choice to be good or bad, that how you treat others is your karma and how they treat you is their karma", when in fact humans just don't give a fuck either way, they can be aware of right and wrong, but as I said, that is just worth jackshit to them, because being a load of drama queens is much more delightful and "awarding" to them during each life these parasitical beings decide to incarnate!!!!!!!!

Some humor: Fuck the humans 
(please click the link and watch the youtube video if you like to understand the assholes of our glorious human race!!)

Having A Go & Stay At The Otherkin Community

I have been sober or CLEAN from the [online] otherkin community for about 4 months now.

That after being banned by many such sites, and groups, and just trying again...

AGAIN I will reiterate the goal of the otherkin [or new age] community - which seemingly is to recognize the magic in all and everybody, only to later find out that these kind of pages are teeming [swarming] with a bunch of arrogant bigotted asses! Who believe that only certain people can be magical and all divinely knowing when they prove themselves to be the biggest bullies, who enforce what they call "respect" in the most fucked up ways such as extreme attention whoring and getting little fanclubs or groups of braindead trolls to blindly follow them. In the sense that these fans of the superior otherkin, practically lack self-esteem and the ability to think for themselves to save their own lives. 

I am still trying to break my head over the fact as to WHY THIS IS HAPPENING, not only in otherkin communities, but as well in HOLLYWOOD and HIGH SCHOOL, and SOCIETY in general. That people believe they cannot be worth shit if they do not attach themselves to a celebrity or someone that LOOKS IMPORTANT. 

Then I have to go on about the NEW AGE BULLSHIT again, because you see if people like these idiot motherfucking trolls [fans of the superior magical otherkinners] are made to believe that they are worth shit how can THEY EVER REALIZE THEIR OWN DIVINITY to bring about a REAL CHANGE of TIMES, or a SHIFT IN CONSCIOUSNESS as the new age nutters call it?

So what is apparent is that we have a whole lot of people WILLING TO SERVE some "deity" [or person that they deem to be one] but not enough people to serve the right cause! And the whole "you cannot serve two gods" thing comes to mind again, God or man - yet again wouldn't self realization of these idiot troll followers of the new age, come down to the worship of man too? Either way, it looks like a situation that can never be won - they worship someone else or themselves, and the same shit happens. 

So where is this all going? I really don't know, I guess not anywhere fast. Man always wants to be divine, but refuse to acknowledge its creator before itself. But how can you acknowledge yourself if you don't realise your creator first?

Hey I am just a girl looking for answers, and fed up with spiritual bullshit. The new age movement is just as full of shit than any christian, hindu, muslim etc. CULT(s).

Before I go off topic - the reason for writing this is to say that by DISTANCING MYSELF from [THE NOISE OF] BULLSHIT, I realized that I don't need that shit, or no person in their right mind would want to be part of a DAY-IN AND DAY-OUT trolling game, between members of a group who lie about seeing magic everywhere, and refuse to see it in anyone but themselves - as a sort of coping mechanism, because the moment they must see something special in someone else, they MUST ACTUALLY START being responsible for WHAT THEY SEE IN SOMEONE ELSE, and need to honour it. As they say "it takes more energy to be good, to share and care, than it takes to be an evil son of a bitch!' Yeah so much for the new ager's willing to work for the light - it is just too much fucking work, that they cannot seem to work into their schedule of self-praising online.

The moment you distance yourself from bullshit, instead of participating in it, you begin to see how totally fatal their actions are, and where such groups terribly go wrong in their search of spiritual truth, if that is at all their goal for being there, which I believe in most cases are not, and that they are just there mocking spirituality to feed some lower or base psychological need such as vying for attention because they don't get that shit in real life, to appease that type of "hunger". Well dressing up as an otherkin persona and pretending to be something you are in fact not, will NOT get you the ATTENTION you really want. It would only give you some sort of superficial feed, instead of going to the core of your problems, that really need to be touched.

How do you know the new age is toxic? When basic human needs are distorted by BULLSHIT!

RACISM DURING THE GLORIOUS NEW AGE OF LOVE

There is a tumblr page called gettingracistsfired.com created by an Asian transgender female wanting to be a man. 

But apart from her gender and personality dysphoria she is also a racist who hates white people more than black people apparently does. 

The page is there to post personal information of people whose twitter and facebook pages are public (showing information on their work address), to get racists rants posted on their walls or tweet profile reportedto the poster's employer so that they can lose their job.

The page has managed to leave various white people without jobs.

They do not only target employed white people, they also target college students, and if they happen to take a screenshot of a racial slur on your page they will notify the school where you study to try and get you expelled.

The creator of the ANTI-WHITE page seeking to destroy white people's lives by rendering them without an income or education, was hacked by chan4 cyberhackers, after pissing them off with her double standards bullshit - when they found out that she is herself a fucking racist bigot, who likes to call white people maggots and want to see them dead especially by food poisoning as she worked at a (fast) food restaurant. She also writes that she does not care if white people's lives get ruined by her racist attacks on them, or that their children will die of hunger when she successfully succeeded in depriving them of a decent living.

The page was started in November 2014 initially to support unlawful attacks on protesters by police, but it slowly spun out of control and by December 2014 the owner "yellowxperil" of the page "gettingracistsfired.com" resigned as admin after pleading to her followers to help her because she was receiving threats of being doxxed herself, by making her private information public online for everybody's eyes, so that because she is such a fucking racist she can also NOT GET EMPLOYED for the same reasons that she wants others to be fired and not taken into service.

the page is highly racist and only aimed at destroying the reputations of white people.

the owner itself is a racist bigot.

there is no mention ever of reverse racism - where for example black on white or asian on white racism, or People of Colour on white racism is being exposed, and People of colour's jobs being exposed to such threats.  A page with double standards clearly.

unfortunately there is white people stupid enough to follow the retards running the page, not realizing that the ADMIN of the page HATE ALL WHITE PEOPLE, not just those who post racist shit on their public twitter/fb pages. These white people support and promote the ANTI-WHITE page, without knowing what the original creator is all about. I am telling you now, I did the fucking research, the owner is a fucking WHITE HATER don't matter if you are racist or not. Don't think she is on your side!!! If you do you need brain surgery

A page was created by an unknown source to expose the racistbigot - letsdoxxyellowxperil on tumblr and let us not forget she apparently has a spot in the WikipediaDramaticaEncyclopedia too for being nothing but a two faced hypocrite who took her shit simply too far - her racist posts on other sites can be viewed on both sites as per links provided.

Example of a gettingracistsfired.com submission: I don't support your racist shit, with your childish replies, this page has become a joke, you are ruining the lives of these people and that of their families.

reply by racist page: i don't give a fuck if they starve, these maggots must die

bottomline: double standards, the scapegoat still blaming other people for your shit instead of fixing your own shit, and being too fucking sensitive, people always wanting to call racist before seeing that they themselves are being racist, the endless name and blame game just to cover their own tracks. Yes well if this is the glorious fucking new age that is upon us, that the GALACTIC FEDERATION OF LIES predicted to have brought to earth during 2008 up to now, and especially 2012, then this is just exactly showing humanity's true nature, that they will never fucking change ever, planet earth is not changing, there is no higher raise of vibrations of great consciousness shifts if this shit proves that people keep on getting dumber and evil as fuck by the minute.

Always this fucking thing with these "saviour" or "social justice warriors" of the internet, here to save mankind, they are always supposedly here to help people with disasterous outcomes and truly sinister intentions - because they can't face up to themselves, and can't stop doing the whole "pot calling the kettle black" - thing, because let's face it people, to be truly spiritually mature would be to shatter their illusions and belief that they ARE SO MUCH BETTER THAN OTHER HUMAN BEINGS, when they are in fact the same pieces of shit, just in different shapes and sizes, doing the same shit to each other if not worse.

How can you claim to be anti-racist when you point out racists to feed your own egotistical needs based on hypocritical racial grounds. Out of sheer hate for the other race, this is in my opinion premeditated racism, and not just stumbling on a page where someone just happens to HURL A RACIAL SLUR, no it is taking the matter further, and taking the law in your own hands and acting as judge and executioner where no authorization was given by law and the proper legalistic channels. 

No court would order such unproportional retaliation, if the Court ordered the employer to remove them from the employment office then it would be lawful. But trying to force the employer to dismiss an employee BECAUSE YOUR ORGANIZATION says so, comes down to Harassment by the inciter and the employer, and the employee can SUE THE HELL OUT OF THEM both!!! They are trying to make their own law on how to respond to racial problems, and it is not working nor would it be legit, as they want to be above the Constitution and the rule of LAW!!!

There is also a story of law student who just so happens ruined his own fucking life while he pretended that his facebook account was his girlfriend's and he wrote a lot of racist remarks there in her name, and posted it to the "gettingracistsfired.com" site, and managed to get his ex gf fired, only to be prosecuted for harassment.

Point of post:

These so called saviours of people are pissing me off, with their hypocritical bullshit, when they only promote the interest of their people or certain groups of people with sinister well planned out agendas - hence they are not TRUE SAVIOURS, just trolls seeking to harass someone who are different from them for the sake of fucking hating. And they get off on it too, until they get fed their own medicine, what happened in this case. Only then do they seem to get kicked off their high pedestals that they put themselves on to pride themselves on being more important than others.

The best critique on this online troll is apparently that she wants to be a man but she can't even practice a shred of humanity towards other people. Irony at its best.

FAMILY MAKES ME SICK

It is a great shame that I have to write this during a Christmas season, when families are supposed to come close and actually be there for each other.

But in my life, the family who I thought would always be there for me, is simply incapable of being there for me on an emotional level at all.

Let's say due to our religious differences - them being dumb christian zealots who cannot go a day without NOT thinking for themselves, and me being the agnostic crazy cousin. I don't want anything financially from them as well, heaven forbid I don't want to create more ties than the TOXIC EMOTIONAL BONDS I already worked so hard to sever.

So the story goes one of my family members asked me if I would come to visit them, via a request on facebook. At first I said yes, but then I was thinking to myself, going through my memory bank of the past five years - why I initially severed all contact with them. My stomach started to act up and I felt like I was going to vomit. Which is strange since the whole week I feel constipated, then I hear I must go to visit the family, and all of a sudden I get diarrhea and fall into a dark cloud of anxiety.

And to top it all off - this week I almost broke my ankle and a ligament was torn. Now I must wear this supporting cast they call a moonboot. And I know how my uncle and grandparents would greet me - first ask me what happened to my foot, then tell me how stupid I am for falling, and then laughing at the situation I am in. These people seriously lack any sense of compassion - maybe it is due to their psycho-sociopathic religious relations. Or just because they are limp brained pricks, as simple as that. 

Or the fact that my aunt thinks I want to seduce my uncle and want to compete with me in a childish manner. This family situation is just fucked up. I just think my aunt is intimidated by me or even jealous - something that has nothing to do with me actually wanting her stupid ass husband. More over I believe it is due to  her religious upbringing, and her strict parents, that made her hate herself so much, suffering from a complete lack of self-esteem due to religious indoctrination - that she is INTIMIDATED and THREATENED by anyone who she feels challenges her self-worth. This is also unchristian like to falsely suspect and wanting to look down on someone because YOU HAVE A PROBLEM with yourself. 

It is absolutely not my problem if my aunt chooses to live a shallow life - and feel the need to compete with a deep and free spirited soul like I am.  Someone (me) who released the very bonds that keeps her (my aunt)  captive. Yes I believe it is ENVY and not jealousy, for the latter requires STRESS that someone is going to take away what  you have. She wants however what I have - the person that she can never be, due to keeping herself mentally imprisoned by her own distorted belief structures.


I sure as fuck don't want to go there on a Saturday, to sleepover, and go to CHURCH with them on Sunday. First I look as if I just escaped war alive with my foot cast, and second I don't have time for that bullshit. These people are not deep, they are superficial and judgmental - the type of people who would rather buy their kids braces to make them feel good than actually talk to them to find out what really bothers them inside.

My aunt is 16 years my senior, yet she still lives in a childlike mentality - due to her always wanting to impress SOCIETY, and always wanting to do what is right according to WHAT SHE THINKS, people thinks, is RIGHT for her to live by.

I used to like her better, when she was unmarried, childless and free spirited and there was more room for development. She seems stuck today. And her dreams have become unattainable by herself. And she lives through her children and social status being married to a wealthy businessman.

I hope I never end up like her, to crucify my soul on society's lame standards. Sad fact is - her husband is just as shallow as fuck as she is. Who wants that, who needs this type of relationship? Only a zombie, slave to this world. They are so concerned with pleasing the world and society, that they completely lost track of themselves AND THEIR CHILDREN who are doomed to fit into the mold they parents created for them to live by.

And of course there is always my father who compares my siblings and I to our cousins, telling us how fucked up we are and how cool they are - then I simply remind him "well these assholes need to grow up some time, they are just crashes waiting to happen". Some fucks need to come back to earth, and some even die before that can happen and their soul can attain true depth. There is no satisfaction in leaving this earth a shallow piece of trash, and getting at heaven's gates EMPTY HANDED. The difference between my father's brother's children and my brother and I, is that WE tasted the ground a long time ago, we actually grew up faster, due to having to deal with REALITY as it is, and not as society portrays it. Can we say that we are more humble than they are, more humility? Definitely.

Let's take for example my brother and I grew up with a father who is emotionally explosive, yay to the scorpio trait. My father always manifested his emotions in some sick way, he never really let it get bottled up. Which is different from his family or brothers and sisters, because they would rather keep their shit in and veiled or clouded from their children. My father is thus different, yet similar to his siblings in some sick way.  Point being made is that if it was not for HIM making his children deal with his emotional suffering, we would not have grown as the people we are today, laid back and even empathetic etc. Is this a benefit of child abuse? LMFAO

My father's siblings' children on the other hand, well their parents fear their emotions more than my father ever did, and failed to express them so that people can really understand them, because it is a sin AND improper you know and then I hear my father's MOTTO: I WON'T LIVE A LIE.

Anyway I stayed at home, and let my parents go on their own together with my little sister to the FAMILY, even though my aunt prepared my bed because I said I was going, I just felt too sick to go there again, it never changes, the story is always the same - the same shallow shit plays off every time. Now I UNDERSTAND why my father always expressed his emotions so vehemently - because that family simply NEVER TALKED TO EACH OTHER, other than the casual and stupid small talk. Well fuck that shit, I don't have time for that shit, I deal with it at my work. I need some time alone too you know, where I can be REAL WITH MYSELF. And luckily I can do that on my weekends. I don't want to waste it on the same superficial shit I deal with everyday.

sometimes dreaming about fucked up shit

You have to be funny about it and honest about it. You can't leave yourself out of that mix. You have to be honest enough to say, I'm that messed-up one in the family. ~ Louie Anderson quotes

CHRISTIAN NEW AGE PROPAGANDA - THE SWEET ART OF DENIAL

So I had a conversation with someone on facebook.

This guy is all about getting saved by GOD and all your sins being forgiven.

You can do whatever horrendous crime, all you have to do is ask for forgiveness from GOD and everything will be forgiven by a simple snap of the fingers.

I have a problem with this because this then means EVERYTHING BASICALLY GOES, by way of DENIAL you will always be SAVED in the christian's mind.

Where is the whole "I AM REALLY SORRY JOURNEY, OR PROVING MYSELF"...when the BIBLE is all about "good deeds won't get you into heaven type of shit".

I am like, what the hell is the use then of SALVATION if you CANNOT WORK FOR IT, if you DO NOT REALLY MEAN IT and want to prove yourself otherwise?

Maybe I am not understanding the Xtian faith correctly. But it is because of pricks like these that no change ever occurs. You just pray and you are fucking saved? How the fuck does that work? When you SHOW no true repentance?

To just fucking die and hope to go to heaven, without ever being REALLY sorry for what you have done, and trying to re-mediate it?

It is like these fucking new age pricks who believe in the aliens who will just come and wisp (take) them away, and that's that, just leave earth in the desolated and destructive process as it is, it will take care of itself type of shit.

I REALLY THINK THIS GUY IS IN FOR A SURPRISE WHEN HE GETS TO THE OTHER SIDE, WHAT IF HE ISN'T REALLY SAVED, AND NEVER WAS, AND HAVE TO WORK FOR IT WHEN HE THOUGHT HE WAS GOING TO SLEEP IN PEACE FOREVER. FUCKING IGNORANT ASSHOLES.

they have air in their hands... nothing solid... all is an illusion in the new age world remember.

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MY KARMA RAN ALL OVER YOUR DOGMA

EXPOSING NEW AGE FRAUDS BULLSHIT MOVES

So today I was sitting in front of the television, and the LONG ISLAND MEDIUM episodes were on.

I did not sit for too long.

Because this woman just annoyed me from the start, her hole act, attitude and look just screams fake and superficial to me unlike the HAUNTING OF episodes hosted by Kim Russo who has a more warm and down to earth feel to me...well that is just me.

Then I went to youtube typing in "LONG ISLAND MEDIUM FAKE" and it led me to this website, and entire website dedicated to STOP this "medium" and her show.

Again, I just realized, what the actual fuck, these people who go so far to create an entire website about people they just want to bring down etc. I think it is enough to say "SHE IS A FRAUD", you know we get it, but let everyone decide for themselves, every single person makes their own choices, and walk their own path as part of their learning experience. I just don't understand why some people try so HARD to warn some people WHEN this is the case of each individual's freewill.

My advice to anyone wanting to expose a new age fraud, is don't make them your life, don't let exposing them become your life, focus on your own life, and focus on building your own life. And so fucking what? You cannot act as guard dog to everyone, you can warn them once or twice, the initiative to heed it or not lies with them. But for fucks sakes, don't go and create an entire website, writing about these stupid assholes day in and day out.

What good will it bring to you? Self-neglect is not an honourable way to bow out.

*some people are like trees, they take forever to grow up*